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HEARTBREAK 1

MY FIRST REAL HEARTBREAK TAUGHT ME HOW TO BUILD WALLS. I LOVED HER WITH ALL THAT WAS IN ME. AND ONE DAY SHE JUST LEFT ME NO EXPLANATIONS, NO WHYS, NO FUCK YOUS, ANYTHING.  I DID NOT REALIZE THEN, BUT NOBODY OWES YOU ANYTHING. NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU MAY THINK IT WILL GIVE YOU CLOSURE, YOU STILL HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO WORK THROUGH IT YOURSELF.  I AM DEFINITELY A MAN GROWING THROUGH PAIN AND GRIEF, BUT IM LEARNING TO DEAL WITH IT.... FINALLY. 

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